Look at that face!

Look who's holding her head up like a champ!

2 month checkup

Happy Halloween!

BB had her 2 month appointment today. My teeny tiny baby is now 10 lbs and 6 ounces (her lowest weight was 5 lbs 13 oz) and she is 22 inches long (she was 19 at birth). She is getting so big! She had 3 shots today..boo hiss!! She did the whole hold her breath thing and then scream like crazy for about 10 seconds. Then whimpered for a minute or so. So Sad!! They gave her an oral vaccine and she was not having ANY of that. She puked all over the nurse. Somehow the nurse grabbed her up and flipped her over without getting any puke on BB's clothes. She moved fast!! My poor angel baby.

So, for the last 2 weeks BB has been acting like she is in agony when we give her a bottle. She writhes and arches her back and screams like we are killing her. And when she burps they are pretty wet sounding. The doctor decided to put her on prevacid so hopefully that will help her out. She has not been eating very well either. I can get 3 1/2 ounces in her if I feed her in her sleep. Otherwise we are lucky to get 1 1/2 to 2 ounces in her. I know she has to be hungry. Plus, she's wanting to eat about every 1 1/2 to 2 hours...all....day...and....night...long. My eyes are crossing I'm so tired. My husband got up with her last night at 2 am and the next thing I know it's 5:30 am! I slept for 5 hours straight! I felt like a new woman when I woke up! I got AB off to school and made muffins and emptied the dishwasher and washed bottles! Then I crashed again from 8:30 - 10:30. (Husband was home today).

Speaking of AB...he is doing great. He had to get vaccinations last week too. We both got the H1N1 nasal spray vaccine. I was on the fence about it but my pediatrician (who I trust and respect) made me feel at ease. It is hard to believe that so many people can't get the vaccine and wait in line for hours to get it. And I was able to get it from my kids pediatrician. I wonder who decides who gets it?!? Anyway, AB got 3 shots and was a trooper. They made his arm sore for a day or two but he did great. He has a clean bill of health from his earlier issues too. I did get a call from our counties health department asking all kinds of questions. The infection he had is pretty rare so they wanted to make sure he didn't get it from food, etc. We are still on the "wash your hands" kick and will be until the end of time.

We are meeting with 2 social workers tomorrow. AB's social worker from Dallas is driving in to see me and him. She called today at 4 pm and said she wanted to see me tomorrow. Seriously? Thanks for the advance notice. I should have told her I have things to do. Then we are meeting with our social worker as well. It's really no big deal and it only lasts a few minutes. But I am ready for all of this to be done! I asked my social worker today when we should start working on the adoption finalization. Seeing how CPS has taken their sweet time doing everything we should have started last month! We hope to have it all finalized by February but we'll see.

We are going to have a busy weekend. There is a fall festival at AB's school tomorrow night, then he is going with a friend to a little festival on Saturday. We have to carve a pumpkin and then trick or treating on Saturday night! I don't even have a costume for BB yet. Mother of the year I tell ya! How fun though! This the the closest thing to a costume I've got!

Here are a couple of pics of me and the girl! I am getting old! Look at those crows feet!!

Is it bad that I love the picture of her crying?


Here's BB and her daddy! She loves looking at him and smiling at him! I swear I do make my bed! I just always seem to take photos when the sheets are in the laundry.

What a weekend!

I got a call from AB's teacher on Thursday that he wasn't feeling well. I was across town so I made my way to go pick him up. When I got to the school the poor little guy was sooo sick...you could just see it in his face. Of course the first thing I think of is H1N1 and start freaking out. I got him home, put him to bed and took his temperature. It was 103! Fortunately I had a garbage can ready by his bed in case he got sick...because he threw up as soon as the thermometer was out of his mouth. So, he's throwing up, BB is screaming and I'm about to have a nervous breakdown. (Did I mention that I had a cold as well?) I immediately called my husband and was all YOU HAVE TO COME HOME NOW!!

LONG story short, since we don't have a pediatrician for AB yet we took him to an urgent care clinic (his first appointment with the ped. is this Thursday). We thought that if it was H1N1 that we could catch it quickly. Sooo, they decided that it was not flu, strep, etc., but that it might be his appendix. His white blood cell count was elevated and he had lots of pain. He ended up being transferred to children's hospital for a CT scan, observation and fluids for 2 nights! It was crazy! My husband stayed at the hospital the entire time and I stayed with BB. We didn't want to cross contaminate everyone, especially since we didn't know what was wrong. We thought that it might be rota virus but it ended up being a bacterial infection, Shigella. He is doing well now but let me tell you, I was panicked! You know how everyone says when you have a new baby that you freak out about this smallest things? And that once the 2nd and 3rd ones come along that you relax a lot? Well, I'm freaking out about the small things for BB AND for AB! I have newborn worries and 10 year old worries. I had no idea how to handle his fever or what to do. It was horrible! I'm so glad it's over. Ugh... It was a horrible time and I hated that I couldn't be with him.

There is really nothing else going on. Just trying to start getting BB on some sort of schedule. She usually sleeps for 4 hours one stretch of the night. Here's what last night looked like.

9:00 pm - put BB to bed

10:30 pm - fed BB 4 ounces

12:00 am - I went to bed

2:00 am- fed BB almost 3 ounces

4:00 am - fed BB 2 ounces

5:45 am - changed BB

6:30 am - fed BB 2 ounces (also woke up in a panic because H was still sleeping and was supposed to get AB ready for school. Said goodbye to AB and H walked him to the bus)

9:00 am - fed BB 3 ounces and finally got out of bed.

Needless to say I am exhausted. She sleeps well when she sleeps, but she's just up alot. It is definitely getting easier! I can't believe my baby is almost 2 months old! Where does the time go? She is cooing and talking and smiling! I just love it!

Look what makes it all worth it!

The mobile on her little chair is her new best friend.

Look who is just about to outgrow her bassinet!

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Rememberance Day

I hate that we have to even have a day like this. It is such a painful thing to go through. Tonight I will remember the 4 angel babies that left me way too soon.

My Beautiful Children

(Halloween costume!)

We made a trip to the Capitol here in Austin...

And to the Colorado River...since AB was studying it in Social Studies

6 weeks already...

(Let me start by saying, sorry for such a depressing post the other day)

So, baby news! I can't even believe that BB is 6 1/2 weeks old! She has grown so much and is just changing every day. I think she has hit that 6 weeks fussy mark. It's not bad but it happens in the afternoons/evenings. The moby wrap is really awesome to calm a fussy baby. She isn't sleeping as much during the day and is so alert! She actually slept for 4 hours in a row last night. I couldn't believe it! She is eating a little bit more and actually took 5 1/2 ounces last night! That is the most she's ever taken! I was so excited!

What else...ummm...just been busy with the kiddos and running errands and going to doctors appointments, etc. Oh and the small matter of keeping a house and cooking and cleaning, etc. I won't go into boring details. Life is good...I can say that for sure. AB is doing great. He joined boy scouts and had his first outing the other day. He looked SOOO cute in his uniform. He's been such a joy to be around. He's just a happy kid!

So, several people have asked me when I was going to have another baby. If it's up to me, never. I am so thankful for the miracle/blessing of BB, but I just don't think I could do it again. It took 4 years to have her and frankly, I'm an old fart and don't have that luxury again. And, AND you know how crazy I was when I was pregnant. No thank you. Not again. Plus a big part of me feels like it would be pushing my luck. BB is great and wonderful (that's not to say I don't spend my days worrying about her and checking her every 10 seconds to make sure she is breathing...last night I checked on her and touched her hand...and it was so cold! I actually felt a bolt of fear shoot through my chest. I knew she was ok...I could see her breathing....but I almost had a heart attack.) and I am sooooooooo thankful for her. And I have AB and I am soooooooo thankful for him. The end.

Oh!! And something funny. H has the book "What's Happening to Me". It's a book on puberty that his mom gave him when he was a kid. I had it on my night stand and this morning AB came in and was all like "Oh, a book! What's this?!" H and I have already decided that we need to have the talk sometime soon. And even the pediatrician was giving some advice on things. So, when he grabbed the book I was like hey....hang on...let's talk about this book before you start reading it. I asked him if he knew what puberty was and he looked HORRIFIED! He buried his face in the pillows on my bed and wouldn't look at me. I told him that the book was about how his body will change, etc., and that it's no big deal...everyone goes through it...and asked if he wanted to look at the book now or discuss it later. He, of course, chose later. It was just so funny! He was so embarrassed. I tried to act like it wasn't a big deal (it isn't) and told him that we would talk about it soon. Poor kid. = )

And of course, no post would be complete without photos!

Look who is starting to smile!!

Or glare....depends on the moment!

She is so dang cute!!

10 Years Old!!

And Fancy the Clown (my mother) showed up!! It was a great party and AB was so excited. He's never had a party before. Poor guy. Tonight, after skateboarding and playing with remote control cars he handed us a note that said, "Thank you for the best day of my life. Here is a little something". And he put $10 in it. We thanked him and told him we were so glad that he had a great day. But we want him to keep his money! Precious boy...can you even imagine?

My mom is great! Isn't she pretty?

My mother is a wonderful artist and we had some fun with face painting! I can't even draw a stick person!

I was a swap monster (a girl...see the pink bow on my forehead?) amd AB was a Skeletoid! Not sure what bloody thing I had been eating or how a skeleton bleeds...but you get the idea! We had a great day!

Wanna know how tired I am?

I was up feeding BB at 2:30 this morning. Here is what happened...in this exact order...

Heard BB crying

Reached over and got a bottle with water already in it

Added formula

Shook vigorously

Proceeded to wipe formula from the walls, my bed, etc.

Capped bottle and fed BB

There you have it folks. Sleep deprivation makes you insane!

So, Patches has found a new use for BB's boppy (Excuse the unmade bed, I was washing sheets!)

Cutests Onsie EVER!!

Just a darn cute picture!

And last but not least....her Moby face!!